Wednesday, March 9, 2016
Maybe the reason I'm missing you lately is because I never really thought I would lose you. The days we spent together, I never thought what life would be like without you until it happened and I had to learn what that kind life was like. It was only a few months of you and I and I often think back to those days because I thought they made me happy. But as I think back, digging deeper into our conversations, I realize they weren't all that swell (you're word, not mine). You weren't the person I thought you were and you apologized for that, but it still hurts. It still doesn't stop me from wanting to pick up my phone and call you because as much as I know that I am better off without you, I still want to have a conversation. Because I looked forward to our conversations and maybe I just want to look forward to something again.